June 4, 2012
I always push things too far, like an acupuncturist with a long needle poking and poking until he hits a nerve, and me always getting kicked when I do.
The pain is a strange reward for somehow getting a reaction from what otherwise appears to be a piece of stone.
But not stone.
Just bone and flesh so cold global warming could not thaw them, flesh filled with untapped minerals of love and tenderness trapped inside, and to which the needle cannot possibly reach, causing only pain.
I need to learn to stop pushing. I need to learn that there are some things that canít be tapped, and no matter how hard I try or how hard I dig, and no matter how much I ache to strike the mother load, I never will.