April 12, 2013
Iím not there out of choice.
I canít win if Iím in the same space. I implode. I fall apart from the inside, and any logical argument I have goes up in smoke.
Seeing isnít believing, itís total defeat, and so I keep my distance or decay like a bad tooth, unable to stand up, sit down or even breathe.
Itís like anti-matter and matter coming together Ė only in this case itís me that ceases to exist.
I lose any moral argument I might have worked out logically in my head because my head will be filled with a vacuum.
So I stay away, choosing never to get in the same place at the same time.
Itís all I can do to survive.